Wednesday, December 22, 2004

What if...?

I really don't remember what it was like to have a dad. My parents got divorced when I was…actually I don't really know how old I was, but I know I was young. My best guess is that I was about 8 or 9. What did my father and I do before then? I learned how to play baseball, he drove me fast in his turbo charged Ford Conquest. Beyond that, I don't know. After they were divorced, my sister and I got to see him quite frequently because he did not live too far away. Eventually however, he no longer lived so close. He moved to New York, then to Pennsylvania, then to Ohio, and finally to Maryland. Over the passed 10 years or so (I'm just guessing) I haven't seen my dad more than once every year. Every time I see him, I am more and more uneasy around him. We don't talk about anything important. Conversation is filled with generalized topics to try to catch up on the passed year of our lives. I don't know my dad anymore. I have wondered what it would be like if my parents didn't get divorced? How much different would my life be right now? Would it be better or worse? I don't know. I've have lived so long without my father that it doesn't really seem to matter anymore. Right now I think that I am content with the way my life is going, and it always goes along just fine until he sends me a birthday or Christmas card. I do just fine when I don't have to think about dad, and this always upsets me. What is he trying to do? Is he trying to mend our long lost relationship? I don't know. It doesn't seem like it when every year he forgets to wish Marissa a happy birthday, or does so a couple months late. Why does he always remember to send me a card on time but not my sister? Do I really want to try to keep a relationship with somebody who doesn't seem to care, with someone who says he wants to change things but never does? I know that dad is not the kind of guy to try to start a relationship, so should it be up to me to get something going? I don't really feel the need to. I've been fine so far, and my mom has got us through everything. Am I being just like my father when I don't do anything? Do I really want to end my relationship with my dad forever? Well, I really don't have one right now to begin with so I guess the question is will I be fine in the future without a relationship with him?

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

EE's Hack Mikey's Computer

Hi Mikey.

Your computer has been hacked majorly by the EEs.

The christmas party was great!

Robb, Grzeg, Nauseous, Parris, and JazumFuchs

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Apartment Blog

Let the Apartment Blog Begin!

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

It's My Birthday?

When I got up this morning, I was pumped because today was my last day of classes, and they weren't really going to be classes. All I had to do was turn in a paper in Ethics, collect my test, wait around, and collect my test in hydrology. The 9 day week was finally coming to an end. I walked into ethics, Adam looked at me with a smile on his face. I was kinda confused until...he told me "Happy Birthday," giving me a nice rub on the head. Hehe, I totally forgot it was my birthday. Between classes I got a call from a number that kinda looked familiar but I wasn't quite sure who it was. Ahh, it was mother dear calling to sing me "Happy Birthday" from the hospital (Don't worry she's not sick. She works there). After class, I met up with Katie and she gave me some sweet presents. So far, I'm having a really awesome birthday. But wait, there's more. Because this is our last day of classes, the civils are heading out to Wick's to eat pizza and get krunk (It's really, it is). The weather is being crazy. It is December 7th (I know this because it is my birthday) and the weather outside is being totally awesome (meaning it's super warm). It's a good thing I have shorts handy.

Heat Wave!

Thursday, December 02, 2004

I'm Beat

5 hours of pure studying will take it out of you, especially if what you are studying for is geomechanics; and it will without a doubt if you studied for hydrology for about 6.5 hours the previous day and you just got finished emptying your mind on paper for that test as well as another. But the good news is that it paid off because I'm pretty sure I did well on both of those tests. Tomorrow brings the geomechanics test and a world religions anthology test. After that, the only things left are an art history test on Monday, an ethics paper due Tuesday, a world religions test the following Monday, and a steel design project/presentation due the following Tuesday. With any luck, I won't have to take a geomechanics final.

As I said before I'm over my terrible freak sickness. However, I am now having an allergic reaction to the antibiotics. Oh man, does it ever stop?

In random news, Matthew Morris and Robert Strojan want to start an apartment blog. Yea, two people who told me they would never ever start a blog even if it meant saving their lives. Speaking of our apartment, it is totally decked out for Christmas. Check out this quality tree.

oooo pretty